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black slashed across an ugly shade of gray-green. Bonnie had never seen

a house with so much energy before.

And it was cold, this energy, like the breath out of a meat locker.

Bonnie felt as if it would suck out her own life-force and turn it into ice,

if it got the chance.

She let Meredith ring the doorbell. It had a slight echo to it, and

when Mrs. Forbes answered, her voice seemed to echo slightly, as well.

The inside of the house still had that funhouse mirror look to it, Bonnie

thought, but even stranger was the feel. If she shut her eyes she would

imagine herself in a much larger place, where the floor slanted sharply

down.

“You came to see Caroline,” Mrs. Forbes said. Her appearance

shocked Bonnie. Caroline’s mother looked like an old woman, with gray

hair and a pinched white face.

“She’s up in her room. I’ll show you,” Caroline’s mother said.

“But Mrs. Forbes, we know where—” Meredith broke off when

Bonnie put a hand on her arm. The faded, shrunken woman was leading

the way. She had almost no aura at all, Bonnie realized, and was stricken

to the heart. She’d known Caroline and her parents for so long—how

could their relationships have come to this?

I won’t call Caroline names, no matter what she does, Bonnie

vowed silently. No matter what. Even…yes, even after what she’s done

to Matt. I’ll try to remember something good about her.

But it was difficult to think at all in this house, much less to think

of anything good. Bonnie knew the staircase was going up; she could see

each step above her. But all her other senses told her she was going

down. It was a horrifying feeling that made her dizzy: this sharp slant

downward as she watched her feet climb.

There was also a smell, strange and pungent, of rotten eggs. It was

a reeking, rotten odor that you tasted in the air.

Caroline’s door was shut, and in front of it, lying on the floor, was

a plate of food with a fork and carving knife on it. Mrs. Forbes hurried

ahead of Bonnie and Meredith and quickly snatched up the plate, opened

the door opposite Caroline’s, and placed it in there, shutting the door

behind her.

But just before it disappeared, Bonnie thought she saw movement

in the heap of food on the fine bone china.

“She’ll barely speak to me,” Mrs. Forbes said in the same empty

voice she’d used before. “But she did say that she was expecting you.”

She hurried past them, leaving them alone in the corridor. The

smell of rotten eggs—no, of sulfur, Bonnie realized, was very strong.

Sulfur—she recognized the smell from last year’s chemistry class.

But how did such a horrible smell get into Mrs. Forbes’s elegant house?

Bonnie turned to Meredith to ask, but Meredith was already shaking her

head. Bonnie knew that expression.

Don’t say anything.

Bonnie gulped, wiped her watering eyes, and watched Meredith

turn the handle of Caroline’s door.

The room was dark. Enough light shone from the hallway to show

that Caroline’s curtains had been reinforced by opaque bedspreads

nailed over them. No one was in or on the bed.

“Come in! And shut that door fast!”

It was Caroline’s voice, with Caroline’s typical waspishness. A

flood of relief swept over Bonnie. The voice wasn’t a male bass that

shook the room, or a howl, it was Caroline-in-a-bad-mood.

She stepped into the dimness before her.

E lena got into the backseat of the Jaguar and put on a plush aquamarine

T-shirt and jeans underneath her nightgown, just in case a police

officer—or even someone trying to help the owners of a car apparently

stalled by a deserted highway—stopped by. And then she lay down in

the Jag’s backseat.

But although she was now warm and comfortable, sleep wouldn’t

come.

What do I want? Really want right now? she asked herself. And

the answer came to her immediately.

I want to see Stefan. I want to feel his arms around me. I want to

just look at his face—at his green eyes with that special look that he only

ever shows to me. I want him to forgive me and tell me that he knows

I’ll always love him.

And I want…Elena felt herself flush as a warmth went through her

body, I want Stefan to kiss me. I want Stefan’s kisses…warm and sweet

and comforting….

Elena was thinking this as for the second or third time she shut her

eyes and shifted position, tears once again welling up. If only she could

cry, really cry, for Stefan. But something stopped her. She found it hard

to squeeze out a tear.

God, she was exhausted….

Elena tried. She kept her eyes shut and turned back and forth,

trying not to think about Stefan for just a few minutes. She had to sleep.

Desperate, she gave a mighty heave to try to find a better

position—when everything suddenly changed.

Elena was comfortable. Too comfortable. She couldn’t feel the seat

at all. She bolted upright and froze, sitting on air. She was almost hitting

her head against the Jag’s top.

I’ve lost gravity again! she thought, horrified. But, no—this was

different than what had happened when she had first returned from the

afterlife, and had floated around like a balloon. She couldn’t explain

why, but she was sure.

She was afraid to move in any direction. She wasn’t sure of the

cause of her distress—but she didn’t dare move.

And then she saw it.

She saw herself, with her head back and her eyes closed in the

backseat of the car. She could make out every tiny detail, from the

wrinkles in her plush aquamarine shirt to the braid she’d made from her

pale golden hair, which, for the lack of a hair tie, was coming unbraided

already. She looked as if she were serenely sleeping.

So this was how it all ended. This is what they’ll say, that Elena

Gilbert, one summer day, died peacefully in her sleep. No cause of death

was ever found….

Because they could never see heartbreak as a cause of death, Elena

thought, and in a gesture even more melodramatic than her usual

melodramatic gestures, she tried to fling herself down on her own body

with one arm covering her face.

It didn’t work. As soon as she reached out to begin to fling herself,

she found herself outside the Jaguar.

She’d gone right through the ceiling without feeling anything. I

suppose that’s what happens when you’re a ghost, she thought. But this

is nothing like the last time. Then I saw the tunnel, I went into the Light.

Maybe I’m not a ghost.

Suddenly Elena felt a rush of exhilaration. I know what this is, she

thought triumphantly. This is an out of body experience!

She looked down at her sleeping self again, searching carefully.

Yes! Yes! There was a cord attaching her sleeping body—her real

body—to her spiritual self. She was tethered! Wherever she went, she

could find her way home.

There were only two possible destinations. One was back to Fell’s

Church. She knew the general direction from the sun, and she was sure

that someone having an O.O.B. (as Bonnie, who had once gone through

a spiritualist fad and had read lots of books about the subject, familiarly

called them) would be able to recognize the crossing of all those ley

lines.

The other destination, of course, was to Stefan.

Damon might think she didn’t know where to go, and it was true

that she could only vaguely sense from the rising sun that Stefan was in

the other direction—to the west of her. But she’d always heard that the

souls of true lovers were connected somehow…by a silver string from

heart to heart or a red cord from pinky to pinky.

To her delight, she found it almost immediately.

A thin cord the color of moonlight, that seemed to be stretched taut

between the sleeping Elena’s heart, and…yes. When she touched the

cord, it resonated so clearly to her of Stefan that she knew it would take

her to him.

There was never a doubt in her mind as to which direction she

would take. She’d been in Fell’s Church. Bonnie was a psychic of some

impressive powers, and so was Stefan’s old landlady, Mrs. Theophilia

Flowers. They were there, along with Meredith and her brilliant intellect,

to protect the town.

And they would all understand, she told herself somewhat

desperately. She might not ever have this chance again.

Without another moment’s hesitation, Elena turned toward Stefan

and let herself go.

Immediately she found herself rushing through the air, far too

quickly to take note of her surroundings. Everything she passed was a

blur, differing only in color and texture as Elena realized with a catch in

her throat that she was going through objects.

And so, in just a few instants, she found herself looking at a

heart-wrenching scene: Stefan on a worn and broken pallet, looking

gray-faced and thin. Stefan in a hideous, rush-strewn, lice-infested cell

with its damned bars of iron from which no vampire could escape.

Elena turned away for a moment so that when she woke him he

wouldn’t see her anguish and her tears. She was just composing herself,

when Stefan’s voice jolted through her. He was awake already.

“You try and try, don’t you?” he said, his voice heavy with

sarcasm. “I guess you should get points for that. But you always get

something wrong. Last time it was the little pointed ears. This time it’s

the clothes. Elena wouldn’t wear a wrinkled shirt like that and have

dirty, bare feet if her life depended on it. Go away.” Shrugging his

shoulders under the threadbare blanket, he turned from her.

Elena stared. She was in too many kinds of distress to choose her

words: they burst from her like a geyser. “Oh, Stefan! I was just trying

to fall asleep in my clothes in case a police officer stopped by while I

was in the backseat of the Jag. The Jag you bought me. But I didn’t think

you’d care! My clothes are wrinkled because I’m living out of my duffel

bag and my feet got dirty when Damon—well—well—never mind that. I

have a real nightgown, but I didn’t have it on when I came out of my

body and I guess when you come out you still look like yourself in your

body….”

Then she threw up her hands in alarm as Stefan swung around.

But—marvel of marvels—there was now a tinge of blood in his cheeks.

Moreover, he was no longer looking disdainful.

He was looking deadly, his green eyes flashing with menace.

“Your feet got dirty—when Damon did what?” he demanded,

enunciating carefully.

“It doesn’t matter—”

“It damn well does matter—” Stefan stopped short. “Elena?” he

whispered, staring at her as if she had only just appeared.

“Stefan!” She couldn’t help holding out her arms to him. She

couldn’t control anything. “Stefan, I don’t know how, but I’m here. It’s

me! I’m not a dream or a ghost. I was thinking about you and falling

asleep— and here I am!” She tried to touch him with ghostlike hands.

“Do you believe me?”

“I believe you…because I was thinking about you.

Somehow—somehow that brought you here. Because of love. Because

we love each other! ” And he spoke the words as if they were a

revelation.

Elena shut her eyes. If only she could be here in her body, she

would show Stefan how much she loved him. As it was, they had to use

clumsy words—clichés that just happened to be uniquely true.

“I will always love you, Elena,” Stefan said, whispering again.

“But I don’t want you near Damon. He’ll find a way to hurt you—”

“I can’t help it,” Elena interrupted him.

“You have to help it!”

“—because he’s my only hope, Stefan! He’s not going to hurt me.

He’s already killed to protect me. Oh, God, so much has happened!

We’re on our way to—” Elena hesitated, her eyes flicking around

warily. Stefan’s eyes widened for an instant. But when he spoke his face

was deadpan. “Someplace where you’ll be safe.”

“Yes,” she said, just as seriously, knowing that phantom tears were

now racing down her bodiless cheeks. “And…oh, Stefan, there’s so

much you don’t know. Caroline accused Matt of attacking her while

they were on a date because she’s pregnant. But it wasn’t Matt!”

“Of course not!” Stefan said indignantly, and would have said

more, but Elena was racing on.

“And I think that the—the litter is really Tyler Smallwood’s

because of the timing, and because Caroline’s changing. Damon said

that—”

“A werewolf baby will always turn its mother into a werewolf—”

“Yes! But the werewolf part is going to have to fight the malach

that’s already inside her. Bonnie and Meredith told me things about

Caroline—like how she was scuttling on the floor like a lizard—that just

terrified me. But I had to leave them to deal with that so that I

could—could get to that safe place.”

“Werewolves and were-foxes,” Stefan said, shaking his head. “Of

course, the kitsune, the foxes, are much more powerful magically, but

werewolves tend to kill before they think.” He struck his knee with his

fist. “I wish I could be there!”

Elena burst out with mixed wonder and despair, “And instead here

I am—with you! I never knew I could do this. But I haven’t been able to

bring you anything this way, not even myself. My blood.” She made a

helpless gesture and saw the smugness in Stefan’s eyes.

He still had the Clarion Loess Black Magic wine she’d smuggled

to him! She knew it! It was the only liquid that would—in a pinch—help

keep a vampire alive when no blood was available.

Black Magic “wine”—nonalcoholic and never made for humans in

the first place, was the only drink that vampires really enjoyed aside

from blood. Damon had told Elena that it was magically made from

special grapes that were grown in the soil at the edges of glaciers, loess,

and that they were always kept in complete darkness. That was what

gave it its velvety dark taste, he’d said.

“It doesn’t matter,” Stefan said, undoubtedly for the benefit of

anyone who might be spying. “Exactly how did it happen?” he asked

then. “This out of body thing? Why don’t you come down here and tell

me about it?” He lay back on his pallet, turning aching eyes on her. “I’m

sorry that I don’t have a better bed to offer you.” For a moment the

humiliation showed clearly in his face. All this time he’d managed to

hide it from her: the shame he felt in appearing before her in this

way—in a filthy cell, with rags for clothes, and infested with God knew

what. He—Stefan Salvatore, who had once been—had once been—

Elena’s heart truly broke then. She knew it was breaking, because

she could feel it inside shattering like glass, with each needle-like shard

skewering flesh inside her chest. She knew it was breaking, too, because

she was weeping, huge spirit tears that dropped on Stefan’s face like

blood, translucent in the air as they fell, but turning deep red when they

touched Stefan’s face.

Blood? Of course, it wasn’t blood, she thought. She couldn’t even

bring anything so useful to him in this form. She was really sobbing

now; her shoulders shaking as the tears continued to fall onto Stefan,

who now had one hand held up as if to catch one…

“Elena—” There was wonder in his voice.

“Wha—what?” she keened.

“Your tears. Your tears make me feel…” He was staring up at her

with something like awe.

Elena still couldn’t stop weeping, although she knew that she had

soothed his proud heart—and done something else.

“I d-don’t understand.”

He caught one of her tears and kissed it. Then he looked at her

with a sheen in his own eyes. “It’s hard to talk about, lovely little

love….”

Then why use words? she thought, still weeping, but coming down

to his level so she could snuffle just above his throat.

It’s just…they’re not too free with the refreshments around here,

he told her. As you guessed. If you hadn’t—helped me—I’d’ve been dead

by now. They can’t figure out why I’m not. So they—well they run out

before they get to me, sometimes, you see —

Elena lifted her head, and this time tears of pure rage fell right onto

his face. Where are they? I’ll kill them. Don’t tell me I can’t because I’ll

find a way. I’ll find a way to kill them even though I’m in this state—

He shook his head at her. Angel, angel, don’t you see? You don’t

have to kill them. Because your tears, the phantom tears of a pure

maiden —

She shook her head back at him. Stefan, if anyone knows I’m not a

pure maiden, it’s you—

—of a pure maiden, Stefan continued, not even disturbed by her

interruption, can cure all ills. And I was ill tonight, Elena, even though I

tried to hide it. But I’m cured now! As good as new! They’ll never be

able to understand how it could happen.

Are you sure?

Look at me!

Elena looked at him. Stefan’s face, which had been gray and drawn

before, was different now. He was usually pale, but now his fine features

looked flushed—as if he had been standing in front of a bonfire and the

light was still reflecting off the pure lines and elegant planes of his

beloved face.

I…did that? She remembered the first tear droplets falling, and

how they had looked like blood on his face. Not like blood, she realized,

but like natural color, sinking into him, refreshing him.

She couldn’t help but hide her face again in his throat as she

thought, I’m glad. Oh, I’m so glad. But I wish we could touch each

other. I want to feel your arms around me.

“At least I can look at you,” Stefan whispered, and Elena knew that

even this is like water in the wasteland to him. “And if we could touch,

I’d put my arm around your waist here, and kiss you here and here….”

They spoke to each other this way for a while—just exchanging

lovers’ nonsense, each sustained by the sight and sound of the other.

And then, softly but firmly, Stefan asked her to tell him all about

Damon—everything since they’d started. By now Elena was

cool-headed enough to tell him about the incident with Matt without

making Damon sound too much like a villain.

“And Stefan, Damon really is protecting us as best he can.” She

told him about the two possessed vampires who had been tracking them

and what Damon had done.

Stefan merely shrugged and said wryly, “Most people write with

pencils; Damon writes people off with them.” He added, “And your

clothes got dirty?”

“Because I heard a great big crash—which ended up being Matt on

top of the car,” she said. “But, to be fair, he was trying to stake Damon

at the time. I made him get rid of the stake.” She added, in the barest of

whispers: “Stefan, please don’t mind that Damon and I have to—to be

together a lot right now. It doesn’t change anything between us.”

“I know.”

And the amazing thing was that he did know. Elena was bathed in

the deep glow of his trust for her.

After that they “held” each other, Elena snuggling weightlessly

above the curve of Stefan’s arm…and it was bliss.

And then abruptly the world—the entire universe—shuddered at

the sound of a gigantic slamming sound. It jerked at Elena. It didn’t

belong in here with love and trust and the sweetness of sharing every

part of her self with Stefan.

It began again—a monstrous booming that terrified Elena. She

clutched uselessly at Stefan, who was looking at her with concern. He

didn’t hear the clanging that was defeaning her, she realized.

And then something even worse happened. She was torn out of

Stefan’s arms bodily, and she was rushing backward, back through

objects, back faster and faster until with a jar she landed in her body.

For all her reluctance she landed perfectly on the solid body that

until now had been the only one she’d known. She landed on it and

melded into it and then she was sitting up and the sounds were the

sounds of Matt rapping at the window.

“It’s been over two hours since you went to sleep,” he said as she

opened the door. “But I figured you needed it. Are you all right?”

“Oh, Matt,” Elena said. For a moment it seemed impossible that

she was going to be able to keep from crying. But then she remembered

Stefan’s smile.

Elena blinked, forcing herself to deal with her new situation. She

hadn’t seen Stefan for nearly long enough. But her memories of their

short, sweet time together were wrapped in jonquils and lavender and

nothing could ever take them away from her.

Damon was irritated. As he flew higher on his wide, black crow’s

wings, the landscape beneath him unfolded like a magnificent carpet, the

breaking day making the grasslands and rolling hills glow like emerald.

Damon ignored it. He’d seen it too many times. What he was

looking for was una donna splendida.

But his mind kept drifting. Mutt and his stake…Damon still didn’t

see why Elena wanted to take a fugitive from justice along with them.

Elena…Damon tried to conjure up the same irritated feelings for her as

he had for Mutt, but just couldn’t manage it.

He circled down toward the town below, keeping to the residential

district, searching for auras. He wanted a strong aura as much as a

beautiful one. And he’d been in America long enough to know that this

early in the morning you could find three sorts of people up and

outdoors. Students were the first, but this was summer, so there were

fewer to pick from. Despite Mutt’s assumptions, Damon seldom sank to

high school girls. Joggers were the second. And the third, thinking

beautiful thoughts, just like… that one down there…were home

gardeners.

The young woman with the pruning shears looked up as Damon

turned the corner and approached her house, deliberately hurrying and

then slowing his stride. His very footsteps made it clear that he was

delighted to take in the floral extravaganza in front of the charming

Victorian house. For a moment the girl looked startled, almost afraid.

That was normal. Damon was wearing black boots, black jeans, a black

T-shirt, and black leather jacket, in addition to his Ray-Bans. But then he

smiled and at the same moment began the first delicate infiltration of la

bella donna’s mind.

One thing was clear even before that. She liked roses.

“A full flush of Dreamweavers,” he said, shaking his head in

admiration as he looked at the bushes covered with brilliant pink bloom.

“And those White Icebergs climbing the trellis…. Ah, but your

Moonstones!” He lightly touched an open rose, its petals

moonlight-colored but shading to palest pink at the edges.

The young woman—Krysta—couldn’t help smiling. Damon felt

the information flow effortlessly from her mind to his. She was just

twenty-two, not married, still living at home. She had precisely the kind

of aura he was looking for, and only a sleeping father in the house.

“You don’t look like the type to know so much about roses,”

Krysta said frankly, and then gave a self-conscious laugh. “I’m sorry.

I’ve met all sorts at the Creekville Rose Shows.”

“My mother is an avid gardener,” Damon lied fluently and without

a trace of misgiving. “I guess I got my passion from her. Now I don’t

stay in one place long enough to grow them, but I can still dream. Would

you like to know what my ultimate dream is?”

By this time Krysta felt as if she were floating on a delicious

rose-scented cloud. Damon felt every delicate nuance with her, enjoyed

seeing her flush, enjoyed the slight tremor that shook her body.

“Yes,” Krysta said simply. “I’d love to know your dream.”

Damon leaned forward, lowered his voice. “I want to breed a true

black rose.”

Krysta looked startled and something flashed through her mind too

quickly for Damon to catch. But then she said in an equally hushed

voice, “Then there’s something I’d like to show you. If—if you have

time to come with me.”

The backyard was even more splendid than the front and there was

a hammock gently swinging, Damon noted with approval. After all, he

would soon need a place to put Krysta…while she slept it off.

But at the rear of the bower was something that caused his pace to

quicken involuntarily.

“Black Magic roses!” he exclaimed, eyeing the wine-dark, almost

burgundy-colored blooms.

“Yes,” Krysta said softly. “Black Magics. The closest anyone has

ever gotten to a black rose. I get three flushes a year,” she whispered

tremulously, no longer questioning who this young man might be,

overwhelmed by her feelings which almost took Damon with her.

“They’re magnificent,” he said. “The deepest red I’ve ever seen.

The closest to black ever bred.”

Krysta was still trembling with joy. “You’re welcome to one, if

you like. I’m taking them to the Creekville show next week but I can

give you one in full bloom now. Maybe you’ll be able to smell it.”

“I’d…like that,” Damon said.

“You can give it to your girlfriend.”

“No girlfriend,” Damon said, glad to get back to lying. Krysta’s

hands shook slightly as she cut one of the longest, straightest stems for

him.

Damon reached out to take it and their fingers touched.

Damon smiled at her.

When Krysta’s knees went boneless with pleasure, Damon caught

her easily and went on with what he was doing.

Meredith was right behind Bonnie as she stepped into Caroline’s

room.

“I said, shut the damn door!” Caroline said—no, snarled.

It was only natural to look to see where the voice was coming

from. Just before Meredith cut off the only sliver of light by shutting the

door Bonnie saw Caroline’s corner desk. The chair that used to sit in

front of it was gone.

Caroline was underneath.

It might have been a good hiding space for a ten-year-old, but as an

eighteen-year-old Caroline had curled into an impossible position in

order to fit there. She was sitting on a pile of what looked like shreds of

clothing. Her best clothes, Bonnie thought suddenly, as a twinkle of gold

lamé flashed and was gone when the door shut.

Then it was just the three of them together in the darkness. No

illumination came from above or below the door to the hall.

It’s because the hall is in another world, Bonnie thought wildly.

“What’s wrong with a little light, Caroline?” Meredith asked

quietly. Her voice was steady, comforting. “You asked us to come and

see you—but we can’t see you.”

“I said come and talk to me,” Caroline corrected instantly, exactly

as she always had in the old days. That should have been comforting,

too. Except—except that now that Bonnie could hear her voice sort of

reverberating under the desk, she could tell it had a new quality. Not so

much husky as—

You really don’t want to be thinking this. Not in the midnight

darkness of this room, Bonnie’s mind told her.

Not so much husky as snarly, Bonnie thought helplessly. You

could almost say Caroline growled her answers.

Little sounds told Bonnie that the girl under the desk was moving.

Bonnie’s own breathing quickened.

“But we want to see you,” Meredith said quietly. “And you know