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heavy and a pretend drink was delicious), and filled the little bag with it.

Then he took a pretend syringe (he held it as Dr. Meggar had and tapped

it to get the bubbles out) and filled it from the little bag. Finally, he stuck

the pretend syringe through his own bars and depressed his thumb,

emptying it.

“I can feed you Black Magic wine,” Elena translated. “With his

little pouch I can hold it and fill the syringe. Dr. Meggar could fill the

syringe, too. But there’s no time, so I’m going to do it.”

“I—” began Stefan.

“ You are going to drink as fast as you can.” Elena loved Stefan,

wanted to hear his voice, wanted to fill her eyes with him, but there was

a life to be saved, and the life was his. She took the little pouch with a

bow of thanks to the kitsune and left her cloak on the floor. She was too

intent on Stefan to even remember how she was dressed.

Her hands wanted to shake but she wouldn’t let them. She had

three bottles of Black Magic here: her own, in her cloak, Dr. Meggar’s,

and somewhere, in his cloak, Damon’s.

So with the delicate efficiency of a machine, she repeated what the

kitsune had shown her over and over. Dip, pull up lever, push through

bars, squirt. Over and over and over.

After about a dozen of these Elena developed a new technique, the

catapult. Filling the tiny bag with wine and holding it by the top until

Stefan got his mouth positioned, and then, all in one motion, smashing

the bag with her palm and squirting a fair amount straight into Stefan’s

mouth. It got the bars sticky, it got Stefan sticky; it would never have

worked if the steel had been razor-sharp for him, but it actually forced a

surprising amount down his throat.

The other bottle of Black Magic wine she put in the kitsune’s cell,

which had regular bars. She didn’t quite know how to thank him, but

when she could spare a second, she turned to him and smiled. He was

chugging the Black Magic straight from the bottle, and his face was set

in an expression of cool, appreciative pleasure.

The end came too quickly. Elena heard Sage’s voice booming, “It

is no fair! Elena will not be ready! Elena has not had enough time with

him!”

Elena didn’t need an anvil dropped on her head. She shoved the

last bottle of Black Magic wine into the kitsune’s cell, she bowed for the

last time and gave him back his tiny pouch—but with the canary

diamond from her navel in it. It was the largest piece of jewelry she had

left and she saw him turn it over precisely in long-nailed fingers and

then rise to his feet and make a tiny bow to her. There was a moment for

a mutual smile and then Elena was cleaning up Dr. Meggar’s bag, and

pulling on her red cloak. Then she was turning to Stefan, jelly inside

once more, gasping: “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to make it a medical

visit.”

“But you saw the chance to save my life and just couldn’t pass it

up.”

Sometimes the brothers were very much alike.

“Stefan, don’t! Oh, I love you!”

“Elena.” He kissed her fingers, pressed to the bars. Then, to the

guards: “No, please, please, don’t take her away! For pity’s sake, give us

one more minute! Just one!”

But Elena had to let go of his fingers to hold her cloak together.

The last she saw of Stefan, he was pounding on the bars with his fists

and calling, “Elena, I love you! Elena!”

Then Elena was dragged out of the hallway and a door shut

between them. She sagged.

Arms went around her, helped her to walk. Elena got angry! If

Stefan was being put back in his old lice-ridden cell—as she supposed

he was, right about now—he was being made to walk. And these

demons did nothing gently, she knew that. He was probably being driven

like an animal with sharp instruments of wood.

Elena could walk, too.

As they reached the front of the Shi no Shi lobby Elena looked

around. “Where’s Damon?”

“In the coach,” Sage answered in his gentlest voice. “He needed

some time.”

Part of Elena said, “I’ll give him time! Time to scream once before

I rip his throat out!” But the rest of her was just sad.

“I didn’t get to say anything I wanted to say. I wanted to tell him

how sorry Damon is; and how Damon’s changed. He didn’t even

remember that Damon had been there—”

“He talked to you?” Sage seemed astonished.

The two of them, Sage and Elena, walked out of the final marble

doors of the building of the Gods of Death. That was the name Elena had

chosen for it in her own mind.

The carriage was at the curb in front of them, but no one got in.

Instead, Sage gently steered Elena a little distance from the others. There

he put his large hands on her shoulders and spoke, still in that very soft

voice,

“ Mon Dieu, my child, but I do not want to say this to you. It is that

I must. I fear that even if we get your Stefan out of jail by the day of

Lady Bloddeuwedd’s party that—that it will be too late. In three days he

will already be…”

“Is that your medical opinion?” Elena said sharply, looking up at

him. She knew her face was pinched and white and that he pitied her

greatly, but what she wanted was an answer.

“I am not a medical man,” he said slowly. “I am just another

vampire.”

“Just another Old One?”

Sage’s eyebrows went up. “Now, what gave you that little idea?”

“Nothing. I’m sorry if I’m wrong. But will you please get Dr.

Meggar?”

Sage looked at her for a long minute more, then departed to get the

doctor. Both men came back.

Elena was ready for them. “Dr. Meggar, Sage only saw Stefan at

the beginning, before you gave him that injection. It was Sage’s opinion

that Stefan would be dead in three days. Given the effects of the

injection, do you agree?”

Dr. Meggar peered at her and she could see the shine of tears in his

short-sighted eyes. “It is—possible—just possible that if he has enough

willpower, he could still be alive by then. But most likely…”

“Would it make any difference to your opinion if I said that he

drank maybe a third of a bottle of Black Magic wine tonight?”

Both men stared at her. “Are you saying—”

“Is this just a plan you have now?”

“ Please! ” Forgetting about her cape, forgetting everything, Elena

grasped Dr. Meggar’s hands. “I found a way to get him to drink about

that much. Does it make a difference?” She squeezed the elderly hands

until she could feel bone.

“It certainly should.” Dr. Meggar looked bewildered and afraid to

hope. “If you really got that much into his system, he would be almost

certain to live until the night of Bloddeuwedd’s party. That’s what you

want, isn’t it?”

Elena sank back, unable to resist giving his hands a little kiss as

she let go.

“And now let’s go tell Damon the good news,” she said.

In the carriage, Damon was sitting bolt upright, his profile outlined

against a blood-red sky. Elena got in and shut the door behind her.

With no expression at all, he said, “Is it over?”

“Over?” Elena wasn’t really this dense, but she figured it was

important that Damon be clear in his own mind as to what he was

asking.

“Is he—dead?” Damon said wearily, pinching the bridge of his

nose with his fingers.

Elena allowed the silence to go on for a few beats longer. Damon

must know Stefan was not likely to actually die in the next half hour.

Now that he wasn’t getting instant confirmation of this his head snapped

up.

“Elena, tell me! What happened?” he demanded, urgency in his

voice. “Is my brother dead?”

“No,” Elena said quietly. “But he’s likely to die in a few days. He

was coherent this time, Damon. Why didn’t you speak to him?”

There was an almost palpable drawing-in on Damon’s part. “What

do I have to say to him that matters?” he asked harshly. “‘Oh, I’m sorry I

almost killed you’? ‘Oh, I hope you make it another few days’?”

“Things like that, maybe, if you lose the sarcasm.”

“When I die,” Damon said cuttingly, “I’m going to be standing on

my own two feet and fighting.”

Elena slapped him across the mouth. There wasn’t room to get

much leverage here, but she put as much Power behind the motion as

she dared without risking breaking the carriage.

Afterward, there was a long silence. Damon was touching his

bleeding lip, accelerating the healing, swallowing his own blood.

Finally he said, “It never even occurred to you that you are my

slave, did it? That I’m your master?”

“If you’re going to retreat into fantasy, that’s your affair,” Elena

said. “Myself, I have to deal with the real world. And, by the way, soon

after you ran away, Stefan was not only standing but laughing.”

“Elena”—on a quick rising note. “You found a way to give him

blood?” He grasped her arm so hard it hurt.

“Not blood. A little Black Magic. With two of us there, it would

have gone twice as fast.”

“There were three of you there.”

“Sage and Dr. Meggar had to distract the guards.”

Damon took his hand away. “I see,” he said, expressionlessly. “So

I failed him yet again.”

Elena looked at him with sympathy. “You’re completely inside the

stone ball now, aren’t you?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“The stone ball you stick anything that might hurt you inside. You

even draw yourself inside it, although it must be very cramped in there.

Katherine must be in there, I suppose, walled off in her own little

chamber.” She remembered the night at the hotel. “And your mother, of

course. I should say, Stefan’s mother. She was the mother you knew.”

“Don’t…my mother…” Damon couldn’t even form a coherent

sentence.

Elena knew what he wanted. He wanted to be held and soothed and

told it was all right—just the two of them, under her cloak with her

warm arms holding him. But he wasn’t going to get it. This time she was

saying no.

She had promised Stefan that this was for him, alone. And, she

thought, she would keep to the spirit of that promise, if she hadn’t kept

to the letter, forever.

As the week progressed, Elena was able to recover from the pain

of seeing Stefan. Although none of them could speak about it except in

choked, brief exclamations, they listened when Elena said that there was

still a job to be done, and that if they managed to complete it well they

would be able to go home soon—while if they did not complete it, Elena

didn’t care whether she went home or stayed here in the Dark

Dimension.

Home! It had the sound of a haven, even though Bonnie and

Meredith knew firsthand what kind of hell was lurking in Fell’s Church

for them. But somehow anything would be preferable to this land of

bloody light.

With hope kindling interest in their surroundings, they were once

again able to feel pleasure at the dresses Lady Ulma was having made

for them. Designing was the one pursuit that the lady could still enjoy

during her official bed rest, and Lady Ulma had been hard at work with

her sketchbook. Since Bloddeuwedd’s party would be an indoor/outdoor

affair, all three dresses had to be carefully designed to be attractive both

under candlelight and under the giant red sun’s crimson rays.

Meredith’s gown was deep metallic blue, violet in the sunlight, and

it showed an entirely different side of the girl from the siren in the

skin-tight mermaid dress who had attended Fazina’s gala. It reminded

Elena somehow of something an Egyptian princess would wear. Once

again, it left Meredith’s arms and shoulders bare, but the modest narrow

skirt that fell in straight lines to her sandals, and the delicacy of the

sapphire beads that adorned the shoulder straps served to give Meredith

an unassuming look. That look was emphasized by Meredith’s hair,

which Lady Ulma dictated be worn down, and her face, which was bare

of makeup except kohl around the eyes. At her throat, a necklace made

of the very largest oval-cut sapphires formed an elaborate collar. She

also had matching blue gems on her wrists and slender fingers.

Bonnie’s dress was a little clever invention: it was made of a

silvery material which took on a pastel tinge of the color of the ambient

lighting. Moonlight-colored indoors, it shone a soft shimmering pink,

almost exactly the color of Bonnie’s strawberry hair, when she was

outside. It sported a belt, necklace, bracelets, earrings, and rings all of

matching cabochon-cut white opals. Bonnie’s curls were to be carefully

pinned up and away from her face, in a daringly mussed-up mass,

leaving her translucent skin to shine softly rose in the sunlight, and

ethereally pale inside.

Once again, Elena’s dress was the simplest and the most striking.

Her gown was scarlet, the same color under blood-red sun or indoor gas

lamp. It was rather low cut, giving her creamy skin a chance to shine

golden in the sunlight. Clinging close to her figure, it was slashed up one

side to give her room to walk or dance. On the afternoon of the party

Lady Ulma had Elena’s hair carefully brushed into a tangled cloud that

shimmered Titian outdoors, golden indoors. Her jewelry ranged from an

inset of diamonds at the bottom of the neckline, to diamonds on her

fingers, wrists and one upper arm, plus a diamond choker that fit over

Stefan’s necklace. All these would blaze as red as rubies in the sunlight,

but would occasionally glint another startling color, like a burst of

mini-fireworks. Onlookers, Lady Ulma promised, would be dazzled.

“But I can’t wear these,” Elena had protested to Lady Ulma. “I

might not get to see you again before we get Stefan—and from that

moment we’re on the run!”

“It’s the same for all of us,” Meredith had added quietly, looking at

each of the girls in their “indoor” colors of silvery-blue, scarlet, and

opal. “We’re all wearing the most jewelry we’ve ever worn indoors or

out—but you might lose it all!”

“And you might need it all,” Lucen had said quietly. “All the more

reason for you each to have jewelry that you can trade for carriages,

safety, food, whatever. It’s simply designed, too—you can wrench out a

stone and use it as payment, and the jewels are not in an elaborate setting

that might not be to some collector’s taste.”

“In addition to which, they are all of the highest quality,” Lady

Ulma had added. “They are the most flawless examples of their kind we

could get on such short notice.”

At that point, all three girls had reached their limit, and rushed the

couple—Lady Ulma on her enormous bed, sketchbook always beside

her, and Lucen standing nearby—and cried and kissed and generally

undid the beautiful jobs that had been done on their faces.

“You’re like angels to us, do you know that?” Elena sobbed. “Just

like fairy godparents or angels! I don’t know how I can say good-bye!”

“Like angels,” Lady Ulma had said then, wiping a tear from

Elena’s cheek. Then she grasped Elena, saying “Look!” and gestured to

herself comfortably in bed, with a couple of blooming, dewy-eyed

young women ready to attend to her wishes. Lady Ulma had then

nodded at the window, out of which a small mill stream could be seen,

and some plum trees, with ripe fruit blazing like jewels on the branches,

and then with a sweep of her hand indicated the gardens, orchards,

fields, and forests on the estate.

Then she had taken Elena’s hand and smoothed it over her own

softly curving abdomen. “You see?” she had spoken almost in a whisper.

“Do you see all of this—and can you remember how you found me?

Which of us is an angel now?”

At the words “how you found me” Elena’s hands had flown up to

cover her face—as if she’d been unable to bear what memory showed

her at that moment. Then she was hugging and kissing Lady Ulma again,

and a whole new round of cosmetic-destroying embraces had begun.

“Master Damon was even kind enough to buy Lucen,” Lady Ulma

had said, “and you may not be able to picture it, but”—here she had

looked at the quiet, bearded jeweler with eyes full of tears—“I feel for

him as you feel for your Stefan.” And then she had blushed and hidden

her face in her hands.

“He’s freeing Lucen today,” Elena had said, dropping to her knees

to rest her head against Lady Ulma’s pillow. “And giving the estate to

you irrevocably. He’s had a lawyer—an advocate, you’d say—working

on the papers all week with a Guardian. They’re done now, and even if

that hideous general should come back, he couldn’t touch you. You have

your home forever.”

More crying. More kissing. Sage, who had been innocently

walking down the hallway, whistling, after a romp with his dog, Saber,

had passed Lady Ulma’s room and had been drawn in. “We’ll all miss

you, too!” Elena had wept. “Oh, thank you!”

Later that day, Damon had made good on all of Elena’s promises,

besides giving a large bonus to each member of the staff. The air had

been full of metallic confetti, rose petals, music, and cries of farewell as

Damon, Elena, Bonnie, and Meredith had been carried to

Bloddeuwedd’s party—and away forever.

“Come to think of it, why didn’t Damon free us?” Bonnie asked

Meredith as they rode in litters toward Bloddeuwedd’s mansion. “I can

understand that we needed to be slaves to get into this world, but we’re

in now. Why not make honest girls of us?”

“Bonnie, we’re honest girls already,” Meredith reminded her.

“And I think the point is that we were never real slaves at all.”

“Well, I meant: Why doesn’t he free us so that everyone knows

we’re honest girls, Meredith, and you know it.”

“Because you can’t free somebody who’s free already, that’s

why.”

“But he could have gone through the ceremony,” Bonnie persisted.

“Or is it really hard to free a slave here?”

“I don’t know,” Meredith said, breaking at last under this tireless

inquisition. “But I’ll tell you why I think he doesn’t do it. I think that it’s

because this way he’s responsible for us. I mean, it’s not that slaves

can’t be punished—we saw that with Elena.” Meredith paused while

they both shuddered at the memory. “But, ultimately, it’s the slave

owner that can lose their life over it. Remember, they wanted to stake

Damon for what Elena did.”

“So he’s doing it for us? To protect us?”

“I don’t know. I…suppose so,” Meredith said slowly.

“Then—I guess we’ve been wrong about him in the past?” Bonnie

generously said “we’ve” instead of “you’ve.” Meredith had always been

the one of Elena’s group most resistant to Damon’s charm.

“I…suppose so,” Meredith said again. “Although it seems that

everyone is forgetting that until recently Damon helped the kitsune twins

to put Stefan here! And Stefan definitely hadn’t done anything to

deserve it.”

“Well, of course that’s true,” Bonnie said, sounding relieved not to

have been too wrong, and at the same time strangely wistful.

“All Stefan ever wanted from Damon was peace and quiet,”

Meredith continued, as if on more steady ground there.

“And Elena,” Bonnie added automatically.

“Yes, yes— and Elena. But all Elena wanted was Stefan! I

mean—all Elena wants …” Meredith’s voice trailed off. The sentence

didn’t seem to work properly in the present tense anymore. She tried

again. “All Elena wants now is…”

Bonnie just watched her speechlessly.

“Well, whatever she wants,” Meredith concluded, rather shaken,

“she wants Stefan to be a part of it. And she doesn’t want any of us to

have to stay here—in this…this hellhole.”

In another litter just beside them things were very quiet. Bonnie

and Meredith were so used by now to traveling in closed litters that they

hadn’t even realized that another palanquin had drawn abreast of them

and that their voices carried clearly in the hot, still afternoon air.

In the second litter, Damon and Elena both looked very hard at the

silken curtains fluttering open.

Now, Elena, with an almost mad air of needing something to do,

hurriedly unwound a cord and the curtains dropped into place.

It was a mistake. It closed Elena and Damon into a surreal glowing

red oblong, in which only the words that they had just heard seemed to

have validity.

Elena felt her breath coming too quickly. Her aura was slipping.

Everything was slipping sideways.

They don’t believe that I only want to be with Stefan!

“Steady on,” Damon said. “This is the last night. By tomorrow—”

Elena held up a hand to keep him from saying it.

“By tomorrow we’ll have found the key and gotten Stefan and

we’ll be out of here,” Damon said anyway.

Jinx, thought Elena. And sent up a prayer after it.

They rode in silence up toward Bloddeuwedd’s grand mansion. For

a surprisingly long time Elena didn’t realize that Damon was trembling.

It was a quick, involuntary shaken breath that alerted her.

“Damon! Dear—dear heaven!” Elena was stricken, at a loss, not

for words, but for the right words. “Damon, look at me! Why? ”

Why? Damon replied in the only voice he could trust not to tremble

or crack or break. Because—do you ever think of what’s happening to

Stefan while you’re going to a party wearing splendid clothes, being

carried along, to drink the finest wine and to dance—while he—while

he— The thought remained unfinished.

This is just what I needed right before being seen in public, Elena

thought, as they reached the long driveway to Bloddeuwedd’s home. She

tried to call on all of her resources before the curtains were drawn and

they were free to step out at the location of the second half of the key.

I don’t think about those things, Elena answered in the same way

Damon had spoken and for the same reason. I don’t think because if I do

I’ll go insane. But if I go insane, what good will I be to Stefan? I

couldn’t help him. Instead I block it all out with walls of iron and I keep

it away at any cost.

“And you can manage that?” Damon asked, his voice shaking

slightly.

“I can—because I have to. Remember in the beginning when we

were arguing about the ropes around our wrists? Meredith and Bonnie

had doubts. But they knew that I would wear handcuffs and crawl after

you if that was what it took.” Elena turned to look at Damon in the

crimson darkness and added, “And you’ve given yourself away, time

after time, you know.” She slipped arms around him to touch his healed

back, so that he would have no doubt about what she meant.

“That was for you,” Damon said harshly.

“Not really,” Elena replied. “Think about it. If you hadn’t agreed to

the Discipline, we might have run out of town, but we could never have

helped Stefan after that. When you get down to it, everything, all you’ve

done, you’ve done for Stefan.”

“When you get down to it, I was the one who put Stefan here in the

first place,” Damon said tiredly. “I figure we’re just about even now.”

“How many times, Damon? You were possessed when you let

Shinichi talk you into it,” Elena said, feeling exhausted herself. “Maybe

you need to be possessed again—just a little—so you remember how it

feels.”

Every cell in Damon’s body seemed to flinch away from this idea.

But aloud he just said, “There’s something that everyone has missed,

you know. About the archetypal story of how two brothers killed each

other simultaneously, and became vampires because they’d dallied with

the same girl.”

“What?” Elena said sharply, shocked out of her tiredness. “Damon,

what do you mean?”

“What I said. There’s something you’ve all missed. Ha. Maybe

even Stefan has missed it. The story gets told and retold, but nobody

catches it.”

Damon had turned his face away. Elena moved closer to him, just a

bit, so he could smell her perfume, which was attar of roses that night.

“Damon, tell me. Tell me, please!”

Damon started to turn toward her—

And it was at that moment that the liftmen stopped. Elena had only

a second to wipe her face, and the curtains were being drawn.

Meredith had told them all the myth about Bloddeuwedd, which

she’d got from a story-telling globe. All about how Bloddeuwedd had

been made out of flowers and brought to life by the gods, and how she

had betrayed her husband to his death, and how, in punishment, she had

been doomed to spend each night from midnight to dawn as an owl.

And, apparently, there was something the myths didn’t mention.

The fact that she had been doomed to live here, banished from the

Celestial Court into the deep red twilight of the Dark Dimension.

All things considered, it was logical that her parties started at six in

the evening.

Elena found that her mind was jumping from subject to subject.

She accepted a goblet of Black Magic from a slave as her eyes

wandered.

Every woman and most of the men at the party were wearing

clever attire that changed color in the sun. Elena felt quite modest—after

all, everything out of doors seemed to be pink or scarlet or wine-colored.

Downing her goblet of Magic, Elena was slightly surprised to find

herself going into automatic party-mode behavior, greeting people she’d

met earlier in the week with cheek kisses and hugs as if she’d known

them for years. Meanwhile she and Damon worked their way toward the

mansion, sometimes with, sometimes against the tide of constantly

moving people.

They made it up one steep set of white (pink) marble stairs, which

sported on either side banks of glorious blue (violet) delphiniums and

pink (scarlet) wild roses. Elena stopped here, for two reasons. One was

to get a new goblet of Black Magic. The first had already given her a

pleasant glow—although of course everything was constantly glowing

here. She was hoping that the second cup would help her forget

everything that Damon had brought up in the litter except the key—and

help her remember what she’d been fretting over originally, before her

thoughts had been hijacked by Bonnie and Meredith’s talk.

“I expect the best way is just to ask someone,” she told Damon,

who was suddenly and silently at her elbow.

“Ask what?”

Elena leaned a little toward the slave who’d just supplied her with

a fresh goblet. “May I ask—where is Lady Bloddeuwedd’s main

ballroom?”

The liveried slave looked surprised. Then, with his head, he made a

gesture all around. “This plaza—below the canopy—has gained the

name the Great Ballroom,” he said, bowing over his tray.

Elena stared at him. Then she stared around her.

Under a giant canopy—it looked semipermanent to her and was

hung all around with pretty lanterns in shades that were enhanced by the

sun—the smooth grass lawn stretched away for hundreds of yards on all

sides.

It is bigger than a football field.

“What I’d like to know,” Bonnie was asking a fellow guest, a

woman who had clearly been to many of Bloddeuwedd’s affairs and

knew her way around the mansion, “is this: which room is the main

ballroom?”

“Oh, my deah, it depends on what you mean,” the guest replied

cheerfully. “Theah’s the Great Ballroom out of doors—you must have